Selamat Ulang Tahun...

Selamat Ulang Tahun...

Alhamdulillah arini , 27 Aril 2010 genap la usiaku 25 tahun..
Masih diberikan Allah badan yg sihat dan syukur atas segala nikmat
yg ada..Semakin usia meningkat semakin byk tanggungjawab yg perlu
digalas..Ucapan ribuan terima kasih kpd ahli keluarga tercinta dan kwn2 yg tak putus2 mengirim SMS juga ucapan melaui FB..Ucapan tanda ingatan sudah lebih dr memadai..Tiada kad ucapan mahu pun hadiah2 yg di minta..Everyone in this world wishes the person they loved the most will at least greet 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'..If u get a call form someone you love that is bonus and will be more meaningful.

Hari ni bagi ku begitu hambar even org selalu ckp "enjoy your birthday"..Ntahla..First sekali hambar sbb tiada ucapan langsung dr org tersayang..Huu tersangatla sedih..Hingga aku sendiri dgn muka yg Xmalu mengingatkan dia "Today is My Birthday" poor me :( Tapi mungkin jg die benar2 lupa mengingati tarikh tersebut so dgn rasa ksh syg yg ada aku seikhlas hati memaafkan die kerana kt adalah INSAN yg sememangnya pelupa..

Hati menjadi terlalu tersentuh dan sedih bukan kerana si dia lupa atau tidak memberi sebarang ucapan atau hadiah tetapi teramat sedih kerana Hari Lahir insan yg pernah menawan hatinya suatu ketika dulu lebih melekat dalam buah fikiranya..Sungguh bertuah menjadi wanita tersebut..Walaupun usia hubungan kami telah mencecah 5 tahun dan pelbagai kenangan telah kt abadikan bersama tp kenangan menyambut Hari Lahir Wanita tersebut pada 1 Mac 2005 di Pizza Hut dan kenangan bergambar bersama di PCB lebih bermakna dan semestinya tidak dapat dia lupakan..So on the last 1 Mac dia lebih beruntung kerana menerima ucapan Selamat Hari Jadi berbanding diriku yg kurang bernasib baik ini..Huuuu TQ for all this Yang..TQ so much..

Berlarutan dr hati yg sedih hingga tido mlm entah ke mana aku mengharapkan si dia sekurang-kurangnya menelefon utk mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI LAHIR..Tetapi semua tu hanya impian semata-mata..Tiada sebarang panggilan telefon dr dia..

Adakah sememangnya LELAKI begitu???Kalo sememangnya lelaki begitu mengapa wanita lain menerima layanan yg berbeza dr diri ku ni..Aku rasa tidak.."Tak kan kerana terlupa nk wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY pon nak sedih???" he must think this way right...So sekali lg bg menjernihkan keadaan aku berdiam diri and keep all this on my own..Sesungguhnya bila org yg kt syg ada di depan mata, kt lebih mengambil endah tak endah dan lebih memikirkan mereka yg kt pernah atau suka..Kejam nya dunia..But once the person we love had gone..Barula we tend to appreciate dia..Tp kalo dia dah pegi jauh dr kita apa gunanya lg..Aku dah 25thn, so besabar jela..Xnak jd seperti budak2 berusia 10thn yg sedih bila dia diabaikan..

Alhamdulillah, tahun ni jgk aku menyambut Hari Lahir yg pertama sebagai seorang guru..Tak pernah terlintas di hati ini aku berada di tahap sekarang..Thanks to my family yg x jemu2 memberi sokongan juga insan tersayang..Tak dinafikan dia terlalu istimewa dan terlalu byk memberi bantuan dan sokongan hingga I become who I am now..

Thanks syg..Just dia tidak terlalu sensitive in certain issue related to relationship and ME..

Thanks to my housemate Kak Niza for the tudung..It’s so nice..Really appreciate it..Sampi-sampi saje di sekolah pelajar2 telah dtg kt keta n wish “HappyBirthday Teacher”..Aku agak pelik memikirkan mcmane dorg tahu birth date aku ni..Xpenah plak aku inform dorg..Students yg nakal n xpenah hormat cikgu2 ni pon wish aku and that’s remind me of u syg yg mmg xingt langsung pd satu tarikh yg bermakna pd saya..Tp xpe..Cukupla kesedihan harini..Terima kasih pada pelajar-pelajar ku Najwa, Sahira, Faridatul, Fadhlin, Nabila dan ramai lg yg memberikan aku hadiah..Terlalu terharu sehinggakan aku mengalirkan air mata..Ada sorang pelajar dtg kt aku dan sedaya upaya speaking utk impress kn teacher die ni..Dia ckp “Teacher, I know my pen is very ugly, but I really want to give u as your birthday present” perghhhh cm nak jatuh jantung ni mendengar kata2 yg keluar dr mulut dia..She tried her best to use the language on my birthday..Aku jd sgt terharu sbb pen yg die bg tu die dah guna dan xsampai hati aku nak terima..Tp melihatkan kesungguhnya aku terima and sgt beterima kasih..Thanks my dear girl..

Tudung from Kak Niza

Pens and greeting cards from my students

Pencil case from Najwa (front side)

Pencil case from Najwa (back side)

Thanks everybody for this wonderful birthday..Semoga Allah merahmati kalian..Kesempatan ini aku memohon supaya Allah mendengar segala hajat ku..Syukur atas segala kurnian yg diberi..

I LOVE YOU

Why Men Lie???

BOHONG??Bohong tu seerti ngan tipu kan kan...Penah x korang berbohong??Penah x korang kena tipu??Best ke menipu??Sakit x kena tipu??Hehehe..Isu ni menarik utk di ponder..S

Ade 1 soalan kt sini..Mengapa lelaki selalu menipu???Xkisah la tipu mak n ayah ke..kwn-kwn ke or de most important his girlfriend..Xla bermaksud pompuan tu xpenah berbohong tapi sebab kan aku ni pompuan soalan tu bermain kt CPU otak aku ni..

Lelaki ni selalu 'tipu'..Cm harsh sgt word tu so kt guna 'xckp yg betul'..Kenapa erk lelaki???From my own experinces this thing had happened twice or perhaps lbh lg..Tp sebagai pompuan rasa n perasaan"Forgive n Forgot" tu selalu ada..Mayb utk tidak mengeruhkan lg keadaan a girl tend to keep quiet n hurt herself..Ermmm Knpa erkkkk????Sedih kan..

Have u caught your man lying for the 1000th time this week and you're wishing he'd stop or at least get better at it...Because, let's face it, most men suck at lying, which is why women are always complaining about it.....Kononyer nak tipu tp xpandai..At the same time, men seem to lie about really really stupid things that they needn't bother lying about most of the time because we don't actually care tp sebenarnyer care gak..

De same situation had happened to me actually..I knew that he was laying but I don't know how to tell him..Ermmmm..Kepada si cinta hati..Jgn la wat lg benda2 cmtu erk..Cakap la yg betul2..Honesty is de best policy syg..

Ade gak post moterm aku buat utk menclearify kn benda ni..Aku rasa there are factors that lead to Why Man Lies???

1. He's afraid of you (takutkan awk pd sy??)

2. He actually thinks he's telling the truth

3. He's insecure (or kata lain nya nak jaga hati)

So ingat-ingatla erk..Honesty is de best policy..Rasanya ssh lg nk ckp bohong drp ckp benda yg betul..

Sometimes we let affection, go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the best.

Family Is Everything

"The strength of a family, like the strength of an army, is in its loyalty to each other"

Manusia lebih memandang pada apa yg mereka mahukan..apa yg mereka cita-citakan dan pada masa yang sama manusia seringkali mengabaikan apa yg mereka telah ade..KELUARGA merupakan satu aset anugerah ALLAH yg tidak ternilai..Nilainya tidak dapat dibeli dgn wang ringgit..

Masa bersama keluarga merupakan satu saat2 yg sangat2 beharga bagi individu yg menghargai anugerah ALLAH ini..Seringkali kita mengahabiskan masa kt bersama kawan-kawan di luar atau lebih mementingkan karier lebih dari segala2 nya..

Kadang-kadang kita lupa..mereka yg paling rapat dengan kita sering dilupakan..Best gak bila ada masa terluang kita lepak beramai-ramai sambil berborak-borak bersama ahli keluarga kita..Kadang-kadang ada gak terlintas kt fikiran aku ni..Masa aku mmg dah diberi sepenuhnya pada budak2 merangkap anak murid aku kat sekolah drp parents n adk beradik sendiri..Mak selalu ckp "Family First"..So abah pon menyahut cabaran tu n menolak pelawaan kwn-kwn dia bermain golf kat KL 2 minggu lepas..So aku pon apply one day cuti..Sorry anak2 murid..Bg teacher chance lepak ngan family plak..So we all plan nak g JB n visit2 Singapore..



We spent 3 days in JB n Singapore..Ktorg g tour JB..G makan-makang kt Danga Bay n shoping la ape lg..De next day g Singapore..Abah ckp better drive sendiri g sana senang nak jalan2..Laz2 aku ni la yg jd supir ..Xpe family punya pasal layan..Ktorg g Sentosa Island..Best sgt tempat ni..Kira berbaloi-baloi la melawat Singapore ni..Best mmg best sbb tempat tu ktorg mmg xpenah pegi but de most important thing de time we spent together to la yg paling bermakna sekali eventhough ada la skit2 salah faham n serba xkena bila bejalan ramai2 ni..Camane pon thanks Mak n Abah for all these..


"I don't care how poor a man is; if he has family, he's rich"

LOVE

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all"

What is LOVE???Do we need LOVE?

Love is a pervasive force in the universe, not just a silly human emotion. Love is the key to living in harmony with each other and with the rest of nature. Love is to allow oneself and others to be as one is, and to live as one naturally lives.

Love is to perceive the essence of people and things and life, and to see and appreciate the value of all things. Love is to go beyond separation and difference and abstraction and language and to feel the unity in all of existence. Love is to participate joyously in the dance of life, to hear the music of evolution, to feel the pleasures and pains of the journey though life, to see the beauty in all of the world.

Painful situations, relationships that hurt us, memories of experiences that pinch our nerve endings, need not imprison us. However, we are seldom very quick to let go of the pain. Instead, we become obsessed with it, the precipitating circumstances, and the longed-for, but often missed outcome. We choose to wallow in the pain, rather than learn from it. And we salt our own wounds every time we indulge the desire to replay the circumstances that triggered the pain. Pain can't be avoided. It's as natural as joy. In fact, we understand joy in contrast to the experiences of pain. Each offers breadth to our lives. And both strengthen us. Our maturity is proportionate to our acceptance of all experiences. In retrospect we can be grateful for pain, for it offered us many gifts in disguise.

When you feel yourself starting to beat yourself up about something, try to pretend that you are your best friend. How would you talk to your friend? You would never tell your best friend the things you tell yourself. You'd never treat anybody the way you treat yourself.

You wouldn't talk to somebody you love that way, would you? Give yourself the compassion, friendship and support you would to anyone you care about.

Treat yourself like a friend.

I LOVE YOU........

Rumahku Syurgaku

Assalamualikum semua…

Org selalu ckp ‘Rumahku Syurgaku’..Maksudnya
rumah tu diibaratkan seumpama Syurga..So sepatutnya
semua org suka la kan dok kt umah masing2..Tapi
kenapa ada lg segelintir teenagers or maybe pakcik2
yg suka melepak kt mamakS or kedai2 kopi..??
Mungkin bagi deorang “Kedai Mamak ni Syurgaku”.


Mula2 aku sampai kt Baling ni aku agak takut
sebab aku xde sedara-mara kt sini..First thing
yg wat kacau skit ialah rumah…Kt mane la aku nk
tinggal sepanjang aku bertugas kt sini???Ada gak
mak n abah try cari umah sewa kt area Baling tp
susah beno nk jumpa..Yela ade bape buah je umah
yg ade kt Baling ni..

So the first day aku lapor diri kt sekolah aritu ade sorang
cikgu pompuan bujang offer aku dok serumah
dgn die..Die dok kat kuaters so aku pon join
sekali…Cik Aniza Bt Tajudin such a nice lady
teaching English in my school..Kak Niza ni org
Penang n berkelulusan Mass Com from UPM...
Die amik KPLI BI dr Mktb Temenggong
Ibrahim Johor..Die dulu 1st posting kt Sabah..
Hehehe..Peh dah 2thn dpt transfer g Kedah..
Alhamdulillah..Dpt la aku share kuaters
dok ngan die..

Peh dah dok kt kuaters guru ni for about 3 weeks,
Kak Niza bgtau ada umah sewa kt taman baru

located in Baling..Dia kata dok kt Baling lg byk facilities
n senang nk makan..Tu yg plg penting utk org bujung

seperti kami ber2..Hehehehe..
So we both agree nak pindah dr kuaters yg agak terpencil

n hulu di Siong ni ke umah baru kt Baling..Walaupun distant

umah baru ni agak jauh berbanding kuaters dulu dlm

18km, tp aku rasa location n umah baru kami ni lg

strategic n selesa..Cewah…

Kami be2 ni every weekend mesti blk kampung
masing2..So 3mggu lps we decided not to go
back and angkut la brg2 pindah dr kuaters g
umah baru..Alhamdulillah, semuanya
berjalan lancar seperti yg dirancang..

Best tau umah baru ni..heheheh..Best sbb

xde org penah dok lg n keadaanya sgt selesa.

So peh raya ni ktorg plan nk wat house

warming..Semua kwn2 dijemput datang erk..

Thanks for reading..

SMK Siong, Baling KEDAH

SMK SIONG

Assalamualaikum to all readers...

Dah lebih sebulan aku ditempatkan kan di SMK Siong, Baling,

Kedah ni..Sebuah sekolah yg bleh dikategorikan dlm kategori A

di mana students die mencecah lebih 1000 org..100% of the students

here are all Malays..Anak bangsa sendiri yg masih mencari-cari

identiti deorang sendiri...

Pada asalnya aku disuruh mengajar subjects English n Sciences.

Aku pun OK jela xkan kita yg baru ni nak tolak plak arahan

yg ada walaupun dalam hati agak cuak nk ajar Sciences ni sbb

bukan bidang n minat aku..Tp Alhamdulillah tiba-tiba ada plak

sorg cikgu BI ni kena pindah sekolah lain..So pengetua selaku

big bos suruh aku ajar BI je..

Aku diarahkan mengajar Form 1 n Form 2..3 klas F1 n 2 klas F2...

Seminggu kena ajar 25 waktu..Akak agak terkezut but Im happy

for that tapi yg xbestnya kena mengajar afternoon session....

Sepanjang hidup aku bersekolah xpenah lg aku merasa sekolah

petang n bila dah rasa ni peeerrrgghhh penat ya amat sgt..

Time yg xbest utk mengajar n utk students belajar..However

tangungjawab tetap kena jalankan...

So far cikgu-cikgu kt sekolah ni ok..Semua friendly..Juz generation

gap kadang2 wat kt cm xon de same par..Yela cikgu2 golden age

selalu pandang senget je pd de new comers ni..Yg paling xbleh handle

cikgu2 golden age ni asyik nak jodoh n kenin2 kan je cikgu2

yg xkawen lg ni...Korang ingat aku ni tua sgt ke..Hehehe..

Tp tu la mentality orang2 yg kononya matang ni..Tp ramai lg

cikgu yg sekepala n best2..

Pasal students plak sume ok...Tp dorg ni tau nk main jer..Baru

seminggu aku kt sekolah ni mmg dah ramai yg kena tengkin n kena

marah dgn aku yg "garang" ni..Kesimpulanya bukan senang nk jd

pendidik ni..Huuuuu..No regrets k teacher...

Hopefully semua urusan aku berjalan lancar dan dapat menjadi

pendidik yg berkualiti utk membantu anak bangsa...AMIN...

I Have To Go

“Ayong bangun..Dah dkt kul 9 ni..Brg2 xkemas lagi”.

Dgn rasa malas yg amat sgt aku amik handset n tgk jam..

“Ala mak relax ar..Baru nak kul9..Belum kul9 lg..”

Tapi jwb dalam hati jela ..Hehehehe..

Today I have to pack all my stuffs including

‘HAIDI’ my bantal busuk to one new and strange

place which I myself don’t even know where.

According to Jabatan Pelajaran Kedah, ada

possibility kat Langkawi (harap2nya jgn la),

Baling (isolated place tp kalo homesick senang nk balik gk),

Pendang (ermm…boleh2 jela)..There are the places

where I might be posted to. Hohoho..Jd org Kedah la Cheq

pehni..Tomorrow 13th July 2009, all the 53 becoming

Kedahan teachers from various states have to be at JPN

Alor Star on 8.00 a.m. The Timbalan Pengarah will be

giving the official posting letter to each one of us by himself.

Before I start my car, my phone beep..Text from my aunty

“Ayong, esok if dpt Langkawi bgtau cepat2 tau.

Nyah nk bgtau kwn2 Nyah n nk mintak tolong

belikan pinggan mangkuk. Nak jual” OMG makcik

haku ni..Business je yg dia ingt erk..Ade plak mtk aku di

dihantar jauh2..No way..Tp kalo dpt gk what to do..

BERKHIDMAT UTK NEGARA…

All my bags are packed and I’m ready to go. My beloved

parents will follow n be my guardian angles. Thanks to Mak

n Abah. Good bye Perak..Kedah here I come..